I care so much for every person everywhere,
And it makes me wonder why they couldn't care,
When I fall down or need a hug to help me feel,
They quickly pass me off like its no big deal.
Sometimes I don't get why I have to see,
All these people who I love but don't love me,
If I could touch all their lives I would live content,
But they reject me and now my energy is spent.
I always thought that growing up caring was good,
And it would have been if half of the people stood,
And dealt with their problems while I tried to aid,
Them in releasing the pain which they have made.
Then its time to look back to me,
Why oh why can I not jus
She's Lost Control Again by VonKalkmann, literature
Literature
She's Lost Control Again
You can tell by the terrified look in her eye,
She called for help but nobody heard her cry,
In a room full of people she has no place to flee,
She has no sanctuary where she can let things be,
Her body feels like a cage and she just wants out,
Meanwhile her mind is being slowly consumed with doubt,
She has lost control of herself and doesn't know how,
But it seems like there is no stopping her now.
I'm shaking so hard,
I think I might break,
There is only so much,
That I can take.
I'm losing control again,
Losing my soul again,
I'm getting beat again,
And it seems so sweet again.
Down in my soul,
There is a flaw,
Something wrong,
I never foresaw.
I'm losing control again,
Losing my soul again,
I'm getting beat again,
And it seems so sweet again.
I'm trying so hard,
Not to fall apart,
I'm trying so hard,
Not to break your heart.
Loneliness is a vast abyss,
Filled by the sea of sorrow,
It is the land which nobody planned,
To wake up in tomorrow.
It's hard to see the remedy,
Is nestled in you and I,
It's heavy and light while wrong and right,
It will make you smile and cry.
It will make you or it will break you,
And always take you apart,
It's not from above and yet it's love,
Found deep in the heart.
Eleven minutes past forever.
We're looking at the stars.
Looking at the streets.
The wide sky above.
Looking at each other.
A Monday night.
I stare at you.
Blankly.
You stare back.
Look straight ahead.
And i wonder what's on your head.
The stars will collide.
Long and wide.
This road is leading us to somewhere else.
We're going too fast, too quiet and too weary.
You hold my hand.
I take a deep breath.
Twelve midnight.
Things drew us closer.
You next to me.
Me next to you.
You locked your lips into mine.
I closed my eyes and inhale your breath.
Unbelievable sight.
You felt so real.
This felt so true.
Everything was i
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